First time sex

I lost my virginity when I was 13 and I still am 13 today. It hurt bad and I was so scared. I knew I couldn't tell anyone except my friend who was there. The worst part of my story is that the guy was 18. This is how my story goes.

One night I stayed the night at my friend's house. We were talking to these guys I had only known for like a couple of months. They said that they would come and pick us up from her apartment. So we got ready and then they came. I didn't think that anything would happen because I had gone and hung-out with them before at their house. But this time it was different. My whole life was about to change.

When we got to their house we just hung out and watched T.V. Then I laid on his bed and he jumped on me while my friend and his brother were watching a movie and making out. He started to finger me and then all the sudden I realize I am having sex. I think what made me not say no was because my friend had already had it and I wanted to, but I didn't think it would ever happen in a million years and especially when my friend and his brother were in the room.

Well me and my friend haven't told anyone and I am too scared to say anything to anyone because I don't want people to think I am a hoe or I am easy or anything. But now I have to live with the guilt of not being able to tell my mom or anyone at that. Me and my mom have talked about sex and I said that I would never do it unless I was like older but I lied to myself and my mom. It made and still makes me feel so bad. I feel like kind of dirty now, but I think eventually I will get over it in time.

maja ta aayo hola ni

i think its cool letting out your diary, but I am not sure that most nepalese here at sajha have matured enough to even to dare to write the word 's-e-x' out here..but anyways kudos for your guts..

I think everyone starts out the way you did..you were just a teen and so did most of us..so don't feel bad for what happened or gulty that you didn't let your parents know...even in a million years parents do not understand that only because they are your parents...if you were like 18 or 21 above then nobody would notice that either.

The first time i kissed a guy, proly at 13...i thought i will be pregnant and i ended up in the hospital for i tried to kill myself for kissing a guy..Now when i look back i'm like..hello ...what was i thinking??hahahhaha

I know lot of teens go through that stage totally confused..when the body is saying one thing and the head is saying another and we have constant battle between them two.

All i can is if it works out well with your bf..its all good..its natural and don't feel guilty..i'm sure your better experienced friends will help you in detail...about right and wrong...don't do it just cuz someone else is doing it..and make sure you know what you are doing...protection, your health, your social consequences...blah blah..

But never let yourself down..you haven't done anything that most people do anyways.

Enjoy life ;p

jahid,

I always thought you were a guy yaar....as far as your name goes.....

The first time i kissed a guy, proly at 13...i thought i will be pregnant and i ended up in the hospital for i tried to kill myself for kissing a guy
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Hehehe....nice to see you alive. :D

well nepalese kids are smart enough tht they have started making at 13. I think I am twice of tht n even event a kiss.....kya bore..muha muha erai hat lai muwai khanchu

really hats off for ur jahid... its really a courageous thing for a girl to open their private n personal thing to the crowd ... and i guess what ever happened is happened so u must let it go... and never luk back...

huspuppy i m happy c ya alive too hehe...

nepalean good luck wid your hand kissing thingy :P:P

and for me not even letting any guy arroun' me until i get married and that'll be after 6 or 7 yrs long way to go:)........ happy wid wat i m ;)

peace out...

Now the real fun begins.....
you should get him to buy stuff for you or else you should threat to report the staturory rape.
Imagine this new found power you have.
Use it wisely my dear.

SEX...........why to make such a BIG deal???????? DONT U THINK its biological need like eating, clothing and other stuff...........

There is nothing having sex........in young age or old age....... JUST have it ........

This is a fake issue. jahid just posted for fun. Who will believe that a 13 year old girl posts such topic in public forum. All bogus.

Mero jageer,

I...well....kinda agree with you....well...uhhh.....why does jahid always write about sex? I have read his/her previous posts too....they all pertain to sex....sex and nothing else.... wonder what he/she is trying to tell here. Correct me if I am wrong.

Woah!

Sex fest in sajha. Talk about the happy days.

freaking weirdo..... stop pasting what you read in your porno sites. I know where you got that story from!!!

Malai lagne kartik timi nakacharo mora mori haru lai po lagecha---bhou bhou---khit khit

you are damn right Mr. U_Day.

These kids are nothing but the nepalese version of american beauty. They talk about sex, they say this and that happened but when someone is really about to screw them up, they say it is their first time. And that's when they know it.

Bunch of posers. Yuck.

Exactly dude. They talk this and that about sex but when it comes to show some action they are clueless.

seems like there are some experts here :P

hey jahid, where did you cut and paste that stuff from?

I really didnt believe when i read this this morning. Now i see more supports on that..
loosers, quit copy and paste from porno stories...